the relationship between zhihao n me is over. i have broke up with him. if u ask me, m i sad? of cos i m sad. cried for few days. becox i really love him. i dont want to break. but becoz i gave him many chance to change. e.g. the way he speak to me is bad. the way he treat me is not gd. i can knw the feeling of his daddy in hospital, but he can control his mood. but he did not.


we quarrel on the 20/11. that day was our one month tgt. i was unable to meet him cos i went out with my SIM frenz. i did celebrated with him earlier. i bought one clothes for him. cos he dont hv much clothes to wear. so i bought him. but the most important thing is. he scold me on the day we been tgt for one month. i did not hear my hp ring as i alway turn on silent mood. so i throw into my bag. when i realise i have few msg n some missed calls. i quickly call him back. BUT, before i call back. he wrote something like this for me. (i have shorten it) if u think that i m not a gd bf. then if u wan break up. i got nothing to say. bt i really dont wish to have break up. the problem is. i did not mention anytihng abt he is not a gd bf. i never think of that. NEVER IN MY MIND. i called him in cab and asked him wad he wan. i did not talk much cos he have hurt my heart. after i hang up, i cried. but after that i forgive him. alot of things he did to me really hurt me alot and i m angry of it. but the nxt day or few hours later, i will just simply forget everything and we good to him again. i never think of he is not gd. i admit i did pop up to break up with him before. but that was wad was in my heart for every long time.


as we promise each other that we dont hide anything in our heart. so i told him. the problem that i want to break with him is he said something that make me think i m so cheap n slut. and as a bf, he shld not say that to me. i admit i smsed u late. but u shld know i m outside with my frenz when i sms u and tell u that i m with my frenz. he say something like this : u now then sms me. do u know i have waited for u for the whole night w/o sleeping. jus wait for ur sms. i also dunno wad u did with them. aiya, i want to sleep le. this is wad he told me(shorten it). wth, zhihao wad u take me as? a slut? a prosittute? i m NOT!!!! i can forgive u. but i will not patch with u. u will say u wanna change if i pach back. but u alway say will change. but u NV CHANGE. i have enough. now i jus wan to be single and available to let guy woo. i do hope i can find a good guy.


i know many guy online. NS guy from commandos,working as perfume supplier, NS guy from tekong, guy who work in japanese restaurant in keppel club. they are quite good to me. and we had chat with each other for quite few times. and when i sad. they will comfort me and trying to ask me out. for dinner or walk walk. i know they are trying to cheer me up. thks. i m happy. =) but now let me think of it. i dont know wad i wan. i m confused~~~